It sounds easy enough, right? But why is it so hard to do? How can I get up every morning saying that I’m going to love myself more and then turn around and nit-pick everything? It doesn’t make a bit of sense. It’s amazing how contradicting we can be of ourselves. The mind works in some pretty crazy ways.
I always like to think of myself as a genuinely happy person, but it’s a lie. Well, a little bit. I’m more so happy towards other things, but hardly ever when it comes to myself. It’s little things mostly. Regardless, I think I’ve come to the realization that I can’t fully love anyone else until I can love myself.
It may be hard, it may take some time, but I will do whatever it takes for however long it takes. I want to be fully happy, I want to be able to share my happiness with someone else. Eventually.
My first small step was going to school for something that I actually feel okay with. I have been in school for 3 years and have yet to find anything that really interested me until now. I went from CNA, to Radiology, to LPN, and now I’m at Medical Assisting. I feel content right now in school.I can always go back for something better, and as soon as I get done with the diploma program I plan to go back for the degree. And then once Link starts school I may decide to go back for Nursing. I have a plan, and that plan makes me happy. I am so glad I have found something that I want to do. I’m already feeling happy with myself for choosing this path, I really think it’s going to be a great career for myself.
Making little changes is making me an overall happy person and when I feel happy I love myself a little more. ♥